Somehow i have decided that it's best i started blogging again, so should i put it in another way, find a very simple way to rant out all my life's problem. i dont intend to publicize my blog, nor do i ever intend this for anyone to read...you can ask, so why not make it a private one?
Simple, what's the point of being all private? i might as well not write up my stuff. whoever stumble across this blog, consider yourself lucky to see my start updating after 1year++. Many things happened, many things changed, but sometimes, changes are too quick for even myself to handle..
So, what's the problem? First, I'm not even sure what i want in life. Yes, I'm considered quite successful at the age of 21, making hundreds every week. but i don't really see a point in making so much cash without someone i can truly enjoy with. what do i really mean? Straight forward, i totally suck at relationships.
Been in and out a couple of relationships and i don't seem to be able to handle them well. It makes me wonder sometimes why people can easily treat me like that. Yes i have my part to play though, but seriously.....right, All of a sudden, i don't wish to talk about it anymore.
I just wish the right person will come by and show me I'm wrong, wrong about every aspect i have in mind. though i really wish to say everything out, I'm the very secretive type of person, somethings just cannot be released onto this page..it's dumb, it's private, it's sensitive...
Whenever i stroll, anywhere and everywhere, i see happy couples hugging, holding hands...and then i look at myself, i can only put my hands in my pocket and look away. Feeling rather pathetic and shy about it.
Maybe I'm just not fated to be in a relationship...or maybe it's just isn't the right one yet?
I dont know...but i hope to find an answer soon enough....
Signing off..