So, here i am again, might have something to say, might have not..
well, what's there to think about, i should just relax myself first. and that's exactly what i'm doing. let my decisions all be made when the time comes, i really hope i can treat everyone equally, that is, after i graduate. it would really help lift a heavy stress of about 80% off me, yes 80%.
though i can say i felt something amiss, but i told myself to ignore and go on. there's no point looking back and thinking about all the bad stuff i've done, what's done is done, all i have left is the future, what i can do to improve myself, and what i can do to be a better person overall..
My whole family's leaving for different countries soon, parents going over to australia, elder bro going to australia to visit his girl, youngest brother going for school trip to vietnam. I'm left all alone, what the hell should i do?! by then I've already graduated, and there's really nothing else i can do. let alone asking people out (oh yea i have limited social circle around me)
why? cause i'm an all work and no play person. i suffer from motion sickness and that's one big major impact that disables me from playing any PC games, console and stuff. I'll puke and fall ill if i try. the only thing i can do to kill time? plan for new businesses and well, maybe read some books to improve myself more...sounds contradicting?
I did try to look for ways where i can make more friends, many suggested clubbing....erm...club? that's not a place for someone like me right? i don't drink, i don't smoke and stuff. so how else? seriously, i really DON'T KNOW!
anyway, i did think about it and i told myself i don't need friends, i only need a few close people, a few i can trust and i'm good to go. what's the point of having 500 friends but none i can trust? i rather have 5 that i can trust.
okay, i'm giving myself a 5day break before i start revision for exams, it's tiring, and i'm glad my cousins are returning to their countries tomorrow, i really miss my bed badly. Let's just hope my dim mood start improving..
Signing off..
I wouldn't mind sacrificing 20 years of my life to have the power to move back in time.